I get it, it hurts to have your heart broken. And I get that it's all my fault and people should hate me like I hate myself. But you act like it's only happened to you, like you're such a victim. Trust me, I understand what you're going through, I'm just happy I didn't make as much of a scene about it as you did. I'm just happy I didn't let the person know how much they hurt me, because I truly cared about them, enough to protect them from myself. Why couldn't you have done the same for me?
Have you ever had the kind of crush where when you don't talk to them or see them for a long time, you wonder why you like him. Why you thought he was cute, or adorable in the first place? And then when you think you don't like them anymore, he starts talking to you again and starts making you laugh and smile. Your heart fills up and you get butterflies, and all the feelings from before come rushing back again. Before you know it, your back to square one.